Now, 5 kids later, and many sizes bigger, I am eating healthier than I have EVER eaten in my life! (In college I even went on a 1,000 calorie diet, though most days I only ate about 600 calories a day! [Eek!] ) By the time I had had a couple kids I was consuming NO processed foods, no sugar, whole grain wheat and grains, lots of organic produce, etc., etc… yet I remain plump.
I have come to the conclusion that FAT does NOT equal "UNHEALTHY." The Lord NEVER stated that we should weigh within certain limits. You can't tell me that the person who has gastric bypass surgery is healthier than me, just because they're now thin! But I am doing lots of things to be healthy! Even if my body refuses to reflect my efforts.
Being a fat person stinks. I hate being judged and ignored because I don't look perfect on the outside. People often look right past me and ignore me, until they hear my comments about something, or get to know me better. Then it's like they've finally noticed I exist. It hurts, but I know that it is simply human nature. We DO judge people based on appearance… even if countless “grandpa” have been quoted, “you can’t judge a book by its cover.” I just wish I knew what I could do differently to change my appearance. I’ve tried it all. I have wasted years in the past obsessing and crying over every pound, and I'm not going to do that anymore. Instead, I will focus on eating to feel good and moving for the sake of moving (since exercise is not in my top 10 things to do for fun).
I've heard it said that fat people show their weaknesses externally. I have, after many years, decided that this is just one of my trials in life. It is something I have to bear on this earth, but look out-- in the resurrection, I'm gonna be drop-dead-gorgeous! ;)
In the meantime, I'm so grateful for the internet, so now I can have a voice without having to help people get past my appearance. I am NOT less righteous because I am fat. I just get to wear one of my trials on my body, for all to see.
Try that on for size.