"How am I doing in my quest to follow Christ?
I should try harder.
The answer to that question depends on the day... and sometimes the time of day. I am working toward that "mighty change of heart until I have no more disposition to do evil."
How grateful I am for GRACE! I can even say that I am grateful for my weakness exposed so that I can work on making them strengths.
I think it is hardest to be that good Christian at home. At home my flaws are out in the open and my kids often use them against me. sigh. Although I try my best to share the "gospel with young and old, lifting, blessing, comforting, encouraging and building" others, I fall short in teaching my family... well at least I think I do. I struggle to keep all commandments, sometimes it's because of understanding. Sometimes it's inconvenient I struggle with meaningful prayer. I study the scriptures, but I worry that I'd fail if I didn't have my calling. (I am SO GRATEFUL for seminary. It keeps me where I long to be and I'd stay with this calling forever if they will allow me too). I struggle to demonstrate love to all I meet. I can't say I'm a good neighbor. I don't even know who lives around me. I rarely visit widows, sick or poor because family and hobbies keep me running.
To be a good Christian I need to work harder t:
Take Christ name and be a better light
seek to know more
Be more patient
seek to be a peacemaker
Seek to forgive and seek to be forgiven
Seek to be truly converted.
Sigh. Not sure I can do all that.