Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Week at the Boyacks - Week 36

 This was a busy week... yet fulfilling.  However, I remembered that I forgot to mention a story from last week.

John got in a car wreck.  See... John stayed home sick one day.  I wasn't feeling well either.  Chad finished math and John volunteered to go get him.  However, John blew right past Chad as he drove down the road in a stupor. Chad wasn't impressed.  I agreed to go get him in a different car. By the time I reached Chad, John had found him.  I was a little annoyed and headed home.  I went around a corner and John went up a different block.

Traffic was crazy.  I couldn't cross the highway, so I decided to turn right and head north and take the first left.  John was confused as he watched me turn off the highway on the side street in front of him.  He was so dazed that he didn't notice the truck right behind me and he shot across the highway.

He said he noticed the blue smoke from the truck breaks first.  Chad yelled, "sh*#!" and clung to the roof for his life.  John decided to speed up and swerve.  I looked in my rear view mirror and wondered why John looked like he was heading for the stop sign and the corner of the road.  Then I got a phone call   "Mom.  Dad just got in a car wreck."  I turned the corner and headed back to the scene of the crime.  Chad didn't want to ride with dad any more.  He hopped into my car.  John was talking to the guy that made contact with the car.

All I can say is that God was looking out for those two.  This dent is all the damage that occurred.  Nothing happened to the other car. Those two have angels watching over them!

One day a FedEx guy knocked on the door with a box for Chad.  We were all a little worried.  We didn't know the lady from New Jersey that sent the box.  Even weirder, the box contained a juicer.  Chad has always wanted a juicer, but we had no idea why a random stranger would send him one. We called FedEx but the address and phone nubewr they had didn't exist.  I finally posted something on Facebook.  My sister Carol got a good giggle.  It turns out that Cad stalker was Bob.  He was so impressed with Chad's commitment to heath and loss of nearly 100 pounds that he ordered Chad a juicer on e-Bay.  He just thought Chad deserved the reward.  So mystery solve.  Uncle Bob is the President of the Chad Boyack fan club.

 We have had great weather this week.  Case has spent many days out in the sunshine.  We may need to buckle down and actually clean up the yard soon. Right now I'd say it is a bit of a hazard.  You never know what you might step in.  LOL.
 Little Ben spent some time hanging out too.  He is a cute little thing.  He really likes to follow Lillian around.  He likes to watch OPB.  He likes to chase Kirby around and "pet" him.  He is a very independent little person.  He likes to jabber.  Funny.  his parents are more the "strong-silent" type.  He is still a mama's boy.  I am glad that he lives close enough that we can see him on a regular basis.  At least he can learn to like us.  :)
 Hannah finished her week with Once Upon a Mattress.  She really did a great job with this show.  She has such an expressive face... a beautiful developing voice... and a stage presence that is captivating.  I noticed that, although she is friendly to everyone and they seem somewhat friendly with others, she doesn't really fit in with this crowd.  I am Facebook friends with many of these kids.  There were all kinds of pictures of kids together backstage with their friends.  There is nothing with Hannah.  She didn't go to Shari's, a Friday night tradition.  She didn't sit by or even talk to the kids at the cast party.  She sat by the adults.
 I asked her about it.  She insists that she has friends, but I don't see any evidence of this fact.

The biggest criticism I get about my years of home school is that my kids aren't getting socialization (in fact, a ward member got in my face about home school after the play one night).  I don't see any evidence that public school is giving my kids social skills either.  First of all, most of the kids act very in-appropriately.  They act childish.  They pick on others.  They sit around and refuse to work.  Most kids think that success just falls on them by virtue that they some how deserve it.

 I didn't raise my kids that way... and most of them understand the lesson.  As a result, my kids like the company of adults over the company of the kids their own age.  I wonder if she is really happy.

Then again, I have to admit that I worry about her spiritual health.  Being in the public school environment contributed to the decline in faith for others.  I worry that Hannah will be next.  She is struggling getting up in the morning.  She even is missing seminary on occasion   When that happens my heart sinks.  She wants to a theater major in college.  She wants to perform and pursue theater as an adult.  Her faith will have to be extra strong to withstand the theater environment.  As far as I can see, it is not that nice.  It is easy to fall back into bad habits... to let bad language slip in... to question doctrine of the family... to keep safe personal boundaries in the current theater community.  Yet, she is very talented and could actually go very far.  I am torn.
 Back to Once Upon a Mattress... Thursday show was an exciting show.  Around 3:30, Emma called.  She sounded horrible!  She was pretty sick.  There really isn't much that can be done when a cold goes to those vocal cords.  I suggested she drink lemon/honey tea and call for a blessing.  Meanwhile, Mr. Witt came up with Plan- B.  He taught Kimberly all of Emma's songs.  I went early and we tested all the best places for Kimberly to stand so that she could sing while Emma acted.  It was crazy!   The two girls sound nothing alike.  It added to my already busy evening of sound management.  But, we made it!
 Emma's faith was rewarded.  She was able to sing for herself by the Friday performance.  I was so grateful for her blessing of health.... at the same time I was jealous of her faith.  She had no doubt that because she had a blessing that she would be able to sing her last two permanence.  No problem.  God is good... even when it concerns little high school plays in little no where towns.  Maybe I should practice that kind of faith when it comes to Hannah's testimony and going to public school.
 Hannah got a little sick too.  The back of her throat was all red and had a few little white blisters.  I started her on Thieves   I am always impressed with this product.  With in 24 hours she was mostly back to normal.  She was able to sing.  In fact, I think Saturday's performance was her best "classical" singing to date.  Saturday was her best acting to date too.

Mr. Witt also announced next years season.  He will d a regular play in the fall.  He is thinking about And Then There Were None (formally known as Ten Little Indians) and The Music Man for the Winter play. There aren't many girl parts in that show.  I'm pretty sure that he has the cast in mind... Hannah isn't really on the list of leads... just chorus.  Chorus isn't bad, but I wish she had a better chance.  I know I am biased, but I do think she has more talent in her little toe than your average 15 year old.
 I also think she is tired of being the second choice.  Her role in Little Mermaid came to her because someone quit the show.  She was a terrific evil eel too!  Her role in Once Upon a Mattress came to her because someone quit the show.  Frankly, I think she was amazing, and may have even been better than the original girl cast.  Anyway, I know she wants to be the first choice for a good role... at least once.  She has a few more years to get a good part. I am also encouraging her to audition for community theater.
Now it is time to move on.  Hannah can now work on school... being lazy (she has started her ornery teen phase and comes home to sit on the computer for hours while neglecting homework and chores).  She can think about auditioning for a community show.  She is running spot light for Legally Blonde.  At least that way she can spend some time with me.  She can play the piano and sing loudly all the songs I've missed her sing in the past 5 months.  I don't think there is a spring play (bummer.  I hope it doesn't mean they are lost forever), but Jacob is working on convincing her to try tennis.  She is in Racket Sports for PE at school.  Maybe she will give tennis a try.





 The final show of Once Upon a Mattress was a big success.  We had about 560 audience members.  I wish we could have had that many for the whole run.  We averaged around 150 for the rest of the performances.  I don't think we even broke even on the expenses.  All of the performers were in top form.  The audience responded to all the jokes.  The kids responded to the audience enthusiasm.  The performances brought the house down!
 The audience went nuts during the Spanish Panic.  First of all, it is a fun dance with everything from Elvis to Micheal Jackson to Gangum style.  But we added two cast members for this final number.  Do you notice them in the picture?  Well most of the cast didn't until the dance was nearly over.  That's right.  Jeff and Linda joined the kids for the final Spanish Panic.  I was surprised that they could keep up.  The whole audience was screaming, laughing and clapping.  It was so loud that I had to yell on the headset to get the crew to hear the cues.
 Anyway, it was crazy.  My friend Adam video recorded the performance.  He promised to get me a copy.  I am sure that it will be epic.

After the performance, strike went quickly.  We left the window wall in the air.  We took apart the rolling wagon and the giant stairs.  My friend from a Salem school asked me to help he make giant stars for one of his productions.  We put all the sound equipment away.  We left a little bit of de-construction and the painting of the floor for the tech theater class.
I was grateful to crawl into my bed after the cast party.  It's been a long 4 weeks... with two shows to keep track of and all.

So that is the report of the week.  After all that, these blogs will start to sound boring.

There is Hannah with her new glasses and her people braces... and her friend Alexa
 



Gospel Study - By Faith All Things Are Fullfilled

Today I read Elder Marcus B. Nash's talk, By Faith All Things Are Fulfilled.

There are days I know that my faith is weak.  Today is one of those days.  There are certain things that I pray for... that I dream of... that I want desperately to come to pass...

I want to be thinner and to have better health.  I have tried cutting wheat, milk and soy... I have tried exercise (but have stopped because I feel so discouraged due to lack of change).  I've started measuring and counting every morsel that goes into my mouth.  I visit an acupuncturist   I even sucked it up and ground the courage to call the doctor to fix this darn hernia.  Trust me.  That took courage.  I do not have faith in doctors.  Even more, I fear that they will insist that I got on drugs for the rest of my life.  I fear that I will be told that I will be just like all those that came before me and that I have a failing heart, blood vessels, cholesterol, and diabetes.  Truth is, I'd rather not know and just move on without the hassle and pain that comes with synthetic drugs and modern medicine.  I'd prefer to use natural means, herbs, diet and exercise to reach my goals.  Sadly, my efforts have made no difference in the past 9 years.  I am still fat.  My knees and ankles still hurt.  I still get headaches.  and the lumps and bumps in my tummy are getting larger.

In many ways I am tired of praying for a healthy change.

I want my son to return to the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  I try to teach him.  I' try to allow him to have choice.  I invite him to church activities.  I invite him to family scripture, prayer and FHE.  I really don't see much of a difference   He is easier to be around, but his resolve that God is not real is as strong as ever.

In many ways, I am tired of praying for that mighty change of heart.

I want my relationships with others to be stronger.  I am trying to forgive.  I am trying to let go.  I am trying to find reasons to make a difference.  Yet I am still indifferent   I have come to a point where i am content to live with or live without and it won't make a difference.

I am tired of praying for that change.

While reading this talk I came to realize that "I am tired of...." really means that my faith is weak.  I have to the point when I don't have faith that these things will change.

I can say that i have faith in Christ.  I know that in Him the impossible is made possible.

What I don't have faith in is me.  I don't have faith in my ability to know what to pray for.  I don't have faith that I have the kind of faith that brings miracles.  I don't have faith in my abilities to seek and see what god's will is because I am clearly not praying for or seeking for God's will   I do have faith that if I were, I would see change.

sigh.

I hate it when I read scripture and come away more discouraged that up lifted.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Gospel Study - One Step Closer to the Savior

This talk made me think of my calling... seminary teacher.

We have been trained in these methods of teaching for several years now.

Nearly every in-service our supervisor hammers in "what to teach" and "how to teach it."  He encourages us "to focus on the needs of the learner... to help them discover truth for themselves... and to listen to their questions."  In in-service we focus on acting "out of love for the one [we are] teaching."

I have seen for myself that conversions is a "lifelong quest to become more like the Savior... to know is not enough... to be converted... requires us to DO and to BECOME."

Trust me.  This is harder than it looks.

I have found that my personal study of the scripture is key.  I have to do more than just study the lesson.  I have to study the words of the living prophets.  I have to study the Book of Mormon.  I have to record my feelings about what I learn.  Study of the lesson is not enough.

I loved the story of the Home Teacher that sent a card to a less active man every month for 22 years.  My son has chosen to be less active.  I wish someone was be that ensilage in inviting him back to Christ, in a kind and accepting way.  Sadly, it isn't true.  I am trying though.  I know that when I live what I am learning through listening to and studying these Conference talks I am not only learning the Savior's way, I will be able to teach my family and students in the Lord's way.

Chopped Greek Salad with my canned Chicken

I tried a new recipe for lunch today.   It is pretty tasty.

Chopped Greek Salad with Chicken


4 servings, about 3 cups each
Active Time: 
Total Time: 

INGREDIENTS

  • 1/3 cup red-wine vinegar
  • 2 tablespoons extra-virgin olive oil
  • 1 tablespoon chopped fresh dill, or oregano or 1 teaspoon dried
  • 1 teaspoon garlic powder
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper
  • 6 cups chopped romaine lettuce
  • 2 1/2 cups chopped cooked chicken, (about 12 ounces)
  • 2 medium tomatoes, chopped
  • 1 medium cucumber, peeled, seeded and chopped
  • 1/2 cup finely chopped red onion
  • 1/2 cup sliced ripe black olives
  • 1/2 cup crumbled feta cheese
  • PREPARATION

    1. Whisk vinegar, oil, dill (or oregano), garlic powder, salt and pepper in a large bowl. Add lettuce, chicken, tomatoes, cucumber, onion, olives and feta; toss to coat.

    NUTRITION

    Per serving: 343 calories; 18 g fat ( 5 g sat , 7 g mono ); 89 mg cholesterol; 11 g carbohydrates; 31 gprotein; 3 g fiber; 619 mg sodium; 659 mg potassium; Vitamin A (140% daily value), Vitamin C (45% dv), Folate (31% dv), Potassium (19% dv), Calcium (15% dv).

Monday, February 18, 2013

Gospel Study - The Joy of Redeeming the Dead

Today I read Elder Richard G. Scott's talk, The Joy of Redeeming the Dead.

Once upon a time I was very interested in Family History.  I chased around family records and put together my dad's side of the family to the best of my ability.  I collected stories from my grandparents, parents (they weren't very co-operative) and my living grandparents (also not very co-operative).  I searched for pictures. I also decided that keeping a journal was also a big part of connecting family, so I kept a journal of sorts off and on for years.

As I started having more children and less time, I dropped my dedicated search for ancestor and slowed down on taking the family names I have sitting in a drawer to the temple.

Hmm... this talk has given me reason to pause.

It may be time to dust off the records, family group sheets, and computer programs and see if I can clean up the mess of neglect on my family tree.

Today I went to Family Search and attempted to link the people I know I am related to.  I smiled when I realized that the work I had done years ago was right there on line!  I don't have to copy pedigree charts for distant cousins and stuff.  It is right there!  I don't have to copy family group sheets for my kids, they can get it for themselves... on-line!

"Those Saints who neglect it in behalf of their deceased relatives, do it at the peril of their own salvation."

I need to MAKE time once a week for search.

I need to MAKE time to take FAMILY to the temple.

"Decide to do something that will have eternal consequences."

"Begin NOW."

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Tasty Tasty! - Grilled Steak with Pepper Relish

I tried a second yummy recipe from Eating Well today for dinner.  I am on this Greek/Mediterranean kick. tehehe.

Grilled Steak with Pepper Relish

Grilled Steak with Pepper Relish Recipe


Makes 4 servings
Active Time: 
Total Time: 

INGREDIENTS

  • 3 small red, yellow and/or orange bell peppers, sliced
  • 1 small onion, halved and sliced
  • 2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar
  • 1 tablespoon extra-virgin olive oil
  • 1 tablespoon capers, rinsed
  • 1 tablespoon finely chopped fresh thyme or 1 teaspoon dried, divided
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt, divided
  • 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground pepper, divided
  • 1 pound sirloin steak or strip steak (1-1 1/4 inches thick), trimmed and cut into 4 portions
  • 1 teaspoon garlic powder
  • PREPARATION

    1. Preheat grill to medium.
    2. Combine bell peppers, onion, vinegar, oil, capers, 2 teaspoons fresh thyme (or 3/4 teaspoon dried) and 1/4 teaspoon each salt and pepper in a large bowl.
    3. Stack two 30-inch-long pieces of foil. Arrange the pepper mixture on one half and fold the foil. Tightly seal the packet by crimping and folding the edges together.
    4. Sprinkle both sides of steak with garlic powder, the remaining thyme and 1/4 teaspoon each salt and pepper.
    5. Oil the grill rack. Place the steak and foil packet on the grill. Grill the steak about 4 minutes per side for medium-rare, 5 minutes per side for medium. Grill the packet until the vegetables are tender, 10 to 12 minutes. Let the steak rest for 5 minutes. Serve the steak with the peppers.

    NUTRITION

    Per serving: 202 calories; 8 g fat ( 2 g sat , 4 g mono ); 42 mg cholesterol; 7 g carbohydrates; 0 g added sugars; 23 g protein; 2 g fiber; 365 mg sodium; 454 mg potassium; Vitamin C (122% daily value), Vitamin A (35% dv), Zinc (29% dv)

New Tasty Food - Lemony Lentil Salad with Salmon

I tried a new recipe today that was yummy!  I got it from the Eating Well website.

Lemony Lentil Salad with Salmon

Lemony Lentil Salad with Salmon Recipe


6 servings, 1 cup each - Active Time: Total Time: 

INGREDIENTS

  • 1/3 cup lemon juice
  • 1/3 cup chopped fresh dill
  • 2 teaspoons Dijon mustard
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • Freshly ground pepper to taste
  • 1/3 cup extra-virgin olive oil
  • 1 medium red bell pepper, seeded and diced
  • 1 cup diced seedless cucumber
  • 1/2 cup finely chopped red onion
  • 2 15-ounce cans lentils, rinsed, or 3 cups cooked brown or green lentils 
  • 2 7-ounce cans salmon , drained and flaked, or 1 1/2 cups flaked cooked salmon

PREPARATION

  1. Whisk lemon juice, dill, mustard, salt and pepper in a large bowl. Gradually whisk in oil. Add bell pepper, cucumber, onion, lentils and salmon; toss to coat.

NUTRITION

Per serving: 354 calories; 18 g fat ( 3 g sat , 12 g mono ); 31 mg cholesterol; 25 g carbohydrates; 0 g added sugars; 24 g protein; 9 g fiber; 194 mg sodium; 743 mg potassium; Vitamin C (80% daily value), Folate (49% dv), Selenium (40% dv), Iron (25% dv), Potassium (21% dv), Calcium (20% dv).

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Gospel Study - Being a More Christian Christian

One of the greatest dreams I have is to be known as a good Christian.  Sadly, I make many mistakes and I fear many that meet my would never guess I am a Christian.  Elder Robert D. Hales talk, Being a More Christian Christian caused me to thing...

"How am I doing in my quest to follow Christ?

I should try harder.

The answer to that question depends on the day... and sometimes the time of day.  I am working toward that "mighty change of heart until I have no more disposition to do evil."

How grateful I am for GRACE!  I can even say that I am grateful for my weakness exposed so that I can work on making them strengths.

I think it is hardest to be that good Christian at home.  At home my flaws are out in the open and my kids often use them against me. sigh.  Although I try my best to share the "gospel with young and old, lifting, blessing, comforting, encouraging and building" others, I fall short in teaching my family... well at least I think I do.  I struggle to keep all commandments,  sometimes it's because of understanding.  Sometimes it's inconvenient   I struggle with meaningful prayer.  I study the scriptures, but I worry that I'd fail if I didn't have my calling.  (I am SO GRATEFUL for seminary.  It keeps me where I long to be and I'd stay with this calling forever if they will allow me too).  I struggle to demonstrate love to all I meet.  I can't say I'm a good neighbor.  I don't even know who lives around me.  I rarely visit widows, sick or poor because family and hobbies keep me running.

To be a good Christian I need to work harder t:
Have faith
Take Christ name and be a better light
seek to know more
Love more
Sacrifice more
Care more
Serve more
Be more patient
seek to be a peacemaker
Seek to forgive and seek to be forgiven
Seek to be truly converted.
Keep swimming.

Sigh.  Not sure I can do all that.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Week at the Boyacks - Week 35

The week was full of sunshine and surprises   This is a good thing because it was also a LONG week.  I only had one day of Legally Blonde and spent the rest of the week with Once Upon a Mattress as my extra curricular activity.  During the sunny days Lilli, Lagi, and Case made good use of the yard.  They do this are great risk.  First, the little people dumped out the backyard trash and spread it all around.  Second, no one has bothered to poop scoop since winter began,.  Third, no one has cut the grass either.  This facts contributes to the dangerous situation we call The Backyard.
On Thursday I spent 3 hours in a dentist office.  Chad got his top braces.  The thing with Kaiser Dental is that they have not been smooth sailing.  They have made mistakes at every turn concerning Chad's care.  They make appointments - they cancel appointment.  They make a payment contract - they change the contract without telling me.  Today (this week report a little early) informed me that they payments were increasing.  I don't think so!  I have a contract!  Anyway, I am annoyed   It has now been an entire year to get these braces on Chad's teeth.
Chad is not real big on smiling, so you won't see him much.  He spent the rest of the week complaining that it hurt to eat... he went through a lot of juice.    He choose red and black bands.  Hannah keeps telling him to get pink for Valentine's Day.  Today he couldn't take it any more and threatened her.  He also got a bite plate today.  He talks funny.  :)  The bite plate is supposed to keep his teeth from locking and place so that they will move faster.
Hannah started Once Upon a Mattress performances.  Wednesday was an open dress rehearsal that seniors and other drama classes are invited to.  Thursday was opening night.  We started the week with a long dark wig.  The trouble is that the wig wouldn't stay on Hannah's head.  We had to come up with something else.  Thursday we decided to try her own hair.  It just wasn't dramatic enough.  We decided that we would find extensions to add to her hair.
This has been a good experience for Hannah.  She has learned a ton from this role.  She learned to sing in her classical voice isn't all that bad and she learned to do it much better.  She was forced to find new friends because her usual friends aren't in this play.  She had her first kiss (ooo-lala!).  She practiced taking direction humbly (still needs work here - :))  And her acting skills are increasing.
Friday, Hannah missed most of school.  First, she had a ortho appointment to adjust her braces.  Then, since I didn't have time to take her home, she went to Portland with me for my acupuncture appointment.  On our way home we stopped to look for extensions and hair dye to make it all match.  We didn't have time to dye her hair on Friday, but we planned on doing it Saturday morning before the Matinee.
Meanwhile, Kimber and Ben played at our house all day.  Good thing it's been great weather.  Ben is discovering the joys of the Backyard.  We really need to clean up our act!
Friday night, Hannah and I went to the high school for call.  I had just finished sound check and Witt had started notes.  I looked up to screaming!  I smiled.  McKay and Myles walked into the auditorium and did what I was hoping they would do with the extra money we had left them.  Hannah was so happy.  She cried.  McKay posted the whole thin on her blog... Our Journey Home
Upon arriving at the school they found Tina, the Janitor. She was more than happy to help them with their little plan and opened the side door of the auditorium. Hannah jumped up and screamed and ran to McKay as soon as she saw her.  It was funny because Witt just gave a note about a scream.  Everyone thought was demonstrating a good scream and said, "Like that."  Then he was a little annoyed and slightly confused until he saw why Hannah had jumped up.  Then all was forgiven.  I watched the whole thing from the top of the room. I was pretty sure they would make it... Myles kept giving me a few hints... but I thought it would be the next weekend because JennieLinn was coming home then.  

Saturday morning we got up and invited Yvonne to come and help us change Hannah's hair.



Hannah had two more great performances on Saturday.  McKay and Myles didn't miss one performance




Grandma and Grandpa Mabee drove over the mountain to see the show too!  It was a real family reunion!


Hannah's friends were surprised and amazed by Hannah's talent.  We're not.  We hear sing every waking hour!





Sunday was church... and a trip to the ER.  Lilli tripped on her way out of my room and hurt her foot.  It swelled up and since I have experience with broken growth plates (Hannah) I wanted to be sure.  John needed to stay home anyway because he hasn't been feeling well so he volunteered to take her.  I got text updates all through Primary.  It turns out that Lilli sprained her ankle.  After church I went to Legally Blonde.  This is not my favorite option...  The rest of the family played with Myles and McKay.  I came home and played for the rest of the evening.  John got up early and too M&M to the airport.  I sure wished they lived closer!  Myles made some comments about getting jobs to ref games here.  YES!  PLEASE!  I bet we could all help to make that happen!  :)  Until then,. we will look forward June when they come again.



Gospel Study - Consider the Blessings

I actually read this yesterday, but my day got away from me.

A couple of thoughts struck me:

Follow promptings.  I may be the needed hands someone prayed for... and I may be needing those "hands" soon.  :)

Think positive thoughts.  "rather than dwelling on the negative, if we take a step back and consider the blessings in our lives, including seemingly small, sometimes overlooked blessings, we can find greater happiness."

God DOES HEAR and ANSWER prayers.

God wants us to be truly happy.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Gospel Study - The First Great Commandment

I love this talk!  Elder Holland has a way of breaking down the scriptures into real life, bite sizes that are easier to consume and apply!

I have to admit, I truly identify with Peter.  My heart is often in a good place, but I'm not always to confident enough to follow through.  I often feel inadequate.  I often feel like "that is done... time to start over."

"I need someone to feed my sheep and save my lambs.  I need someone to preach my gospel and defend my faith."

He's not asking much.

A willing heart.

I can do that.

Loyalty.

I can do that.

There are "neighbors to  bless, children to protect, the poor to lift up, and the truth to defend.  I have wrongs to make right, truths to share, and good to do... a life of devoted discipleship to give in demonstrating my love of the Lord."

I can do that.

Every little thing counts.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Gospel Study - Learning with Our Hearts

The heart is truly where my deepest learning takes place.  It is in my heart that I "feel" the Savior in my life and "know" more about him.  I know I have gained knowledge in my heart that I could not obtain in any other way.

I am working on reading scriptures and following the living prophets.  I am working at understanding prayer and applying the principles of prayer to my life.  It is a little harder to "take time to be still and feel."  The world can be so loud and overwhelming.... especially in a houseful of teens with their competing electronic noise devices!

Then there are all those mistakes I make.  Those mistake most definitely get in my way of seeing, feeling, and loving others.

Repentance.  I need a little more of that.

Remember!  Such a hard thing.

It may be hard but it is worth it!!!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Week at the Boyacks - Week 33

I'm running behind on my weekly review.  I haven't been feeling my best and just can't find the energy to do more.  But I can't get too far behind or I won't be able to catch up.  So her it goes.  I review of last week.

Last week was full of lessons, school and rehearsal. But the best event of the week was baby Ben's first birthday!  He is such a blessing!  To everyone!  It is hard to believe that he was been blessing us with his giggle, smiles and snuggles for a year!  I remember the day he was born so well.  His mom was brave and labored without drugs.  She was strong as she helped him into the world.  I was blessed to be invited to the near sacred event.  I was blessed to be part of the team and to watch Ben's parents lovingly help each other through a long and tiring day.
 I think it is so awesome that Ben and Lillian are the best of friends.  Seriously, they can hardly be separated   Ben thinks Lillian is the best thing ever.  Who needs toys when you have an Aunt Lilli?  But the feeling is mutual.  Lillian loves to play with and boss Ben.  It really is a match made in heaven.  I sure hope they can keep this relationship for a very long time.
 Hannah and I missed most of Ben's family birthday party because we were at rehearsal.  Ben seemed to like the ball Grandpa bought him.
 He wasn't too sure about the cake until he got to eat it.  Then, cake was a very good thing.  Yvonne made him a cute bear cake.  He mostly wore it.  He loved ice cream!  guess he got it from the gen pool.
His birthday party was full of good food (fajitas) and video games.  Hey!  What's a party without 3 or  people holding down the couch with controllers in their hands?  LOL.  We now how to throw a great party!
 After cake and ice cream with Ben, John came with Hannah and me to the high school to paint the floor. We started with a crowd, but by the time we were finished we only had John, Hannah, our friend John Hatch and Jeff Witt and myself.  We have been there until 1 in the morning, but we were able to finish painting the floor and hang and focus all my extra little lights for the show.  By the time we left I was ready for Saturday... the longest day of rehearsal... Marathon day.
 Sadly, I went home to a very sick Lillian.  Her head hurt.  Her throat was sore, Her body ached.  He fever burned.  She was crazy sick.  However, that made my short night even shorter.  Lillian had to sleep by me.  Trust me.  That is not fun!  She tossed and turned and sweated all night long.  I didn't get much sleep.  In fact, I was relieved to be able to get up the next morning and go to rehearsal.
 The week was a long week of rehearsals.  Monday and Tuesday I taught voice lessons all afternoon.  Then, before heading to Legally Blonde rehearsals I stopped off at Once Upon a Mattress rehearsals to see how things were shacking out.  Wednesday and Thursday I went to Once Upon a Mattress rehearsal in the afternoon, then headed to Legally Blonde rehearsal.  Friday was Once Upon a Mattress rehearsal  birthday party, and paint party.  You can see why I'm so tired.  LOL.  Good thing I LOVE what I do.
Marathon Day went well.  I was able to work out most of my problems with sets, light, and sound.  I worked extra hard to make things ready because I knew I couldn't be there at Monday's dress rehearsal.  What amazes me most about long days such as these is the people that come out of the wood work to watch me run around like a crazy person solving problem and make little comments about the set, lights or sound and the problems I am having!  It would hurt to ask to help!  It wouldn't hurt to show up on work days and to help put it all together!  Trust me.  Standing at the back of the auditorium and discussing how things are 2 inches off center or how the construction would meet OCEA standards is just a great way to make me mad!

At least Hannah is a bright spot in my day.  Not only does she work hard to help me with tech stuff, she is working hard to be a better performer.  She doesn't like classical singing and yet she is learning how - successfully.  She doesn't really like physical affection and yet she has to kiss a boy for this show.  She is learning how to take direction - a humbling experience.  I'm sure she will be a fantastic performer, not only in this show, but in shows to come.  If she really goes forward with the performing arts as her life pursuit, she will be a contender!

So... that's the week.  Thanks for checking in.